Caught in the Middle

I am a big fan of music. Many songs can make me go from happy to sad, or vice versa, in an instant. The lyrics really touch my heart, and it seems like the perfect song comes on at just the right time.


There is a song called "Somewhere in the Middle" by Casting Crowns, and I have had it since 2007. You know how sometimes you want to listen to certain songs, but ignore others? Or you may even listen to them but there just isn't a connection? That is what happened to me with this song. I have heard it before, but until yesterday I really hadn't given it much of a chance. The song came of my iPhone during my workout. I have been having a lot on my mind lately and someone (God :) ) told me to not skip it this time. I listened to the words very carefully and it was of course just what I needed to hear.


"Somewhere in the Middle" is about being caught in the middle of what you want and what you know is better for you, God's plan. I can't just pick out certain parts of the song because it is all great to me. Here are the lyrics, but I do suggest you listen to it as well.

Somewhere between the hot and the cold
Somewhere between the new and the old
Somewhere between who I am and who I used to be
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me

Somewhere between the wrong and the right
Somewhere between the darkness and the light
Somewhere between who I was and who You're making me
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control

Fearless warriors in a picket fence, reckless abandon wrapped in common sense

Deep water faith in the shallow end and we are caught in the middle
With eyes wide open to the differences, the God we want and the God who is
But will we trade our dreams for His or are we caught in the middle
Are we caught in the middle

Somewhere between my heart and my hands
Somewhere between my faith and my plans
Somewhere between the safety of the boat and the crashing waves

Somewhere between a whisper and a roar
Somewhere between the altar and the door
Somewhere between contented peace and always wanting more
Somewhere in the middle You'll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control

Lord, I feel You in this place and I know You're by my side
Loving me even on these nights when I'm caught in the middle

I am so grateful that God reminds us that we are not alone in our struggles. I know that, or I try to tell myself, but when I am down I feel alone. Not to mention that the enemy doesn't help. He begins to plant thoughts in my head that lead to a domino effect of negative thoughts. By the end I have beat myself up and feel unworthy of what God has to offer. But that is not true.

This song told me that I am not the only one wrestling with what I want and what God has for me. I am not the only one caught in the middle of knowing God is amazing and faithful, but still holding on to what I want thinking He won't come through this time. The bible talks about how everything we go through is not new. No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have had to face . All you need to remember is that God will never let you down; He'll never let you be pushed past your limit; He'll always be there to help you come through it. - 1 Corinthians 10:13. There is no situation we will face that someone else has not been through. More importantly God can overcome every situation, so we are NEVER alone. 

I believe I have overlooked this song for four years because God had the perfect time He was going to need me to listen to it. At just the right time, it was going to be His voice telling me that He is right there. Loving me even on these nights when I'm caught in the middle.